Thursday I was sore and my back was bothering me but I went to body step anyway. My good friend Lesley joined me to get in some practice with the new release. She just went to get certified to teach this past weekend. I struggled through the class for sure. Tuesday I rocked it, Thursday I looked like an out of shape mess.

Friday I woke up and it was over. I could not get out of bed. The soreness had set in and set in big time. I called out of work because I could hardly walk and spent the day on the couch with the heating pad.

Saturday was not much better but I was able to get up and walk around a little easier. Sunday even better and today even better still.

I had all intention of getting back into the gym today, after all I have been out for 3 days, but my job didn’t want to help me out and I didn’t get out of a 1:30 court hearing until well after 5:00pm. I am taking it as a sign as I can still feel a little pull in my back today, but tomorrow I am back at it and back to body step.

Struggles this weekend were #1 food choices. If I could stop stuffing my mouth on the weekends I might actually be able to get some of this weight off instead of losing and gaining the same 5-8 lbs over and over again.

A friend of mine posted a picture of me on Facebook from college today. UGG I want my body back. I don’t expect to get back 100% to that point but to get somewhere close would be nice.

  Back to the grind tomorrow!

That is what I am talkin about! If I had a Jillian Michael’s in my life I would have never gotten to the point of having to lose 30 lbs. I loved today. Anastasia had me do a circuit that consisted of swinging a 20lb dumbbell, box jumps, some time on the spin bike, and crunches. My legs were ready to give out! We also did some boxing which took me back to my days of kickboxing. Anastasia was so encouraging and so motivating. I loved working out with her. In the end she said “I like working with you, you want this and you want to work!”

Hell ya! I am finding my grove. So far I have met my goal of doing 30 minutes of cardio after my sessions at Fitness Together and I have attended a group class on the days that I am not at FT. 

A game of catch up.

Last night I joined a group class at a nearby gym. It was the launch of Body Step 78 and it was an intense cardio session and I am looking forward to doing it again tomorrow.

Monday I was at Fitness Together with Andrea and she Kicked my ass! It was one of the best workouts I have had with her at FT. She said that she could see that my endurance has increased in the short time I have been at FT and she can already tell I am getting stronger.

I have to admit that last week I was questioning if Fitness Together was the right place for me. I was having some doubts about if I was going to be able to make the changes that I have set out to make.

Today I can say 100% that I know that Fitness Together is the right place for me.  They have encouraged me through out my journey so far and this week more than any other time I have been able to realize that I am making progress. It is slow progress but healthy progress. Anastasia asked me how much weight I have lost today. I told her about 4-5lbs which doesn’t seem like a lot to me but she reminded me that I have probably gained 3-4 lbs of muscle which weights more than fat.

Regardless of what the scale says I feel great. I have been able to do things this week that remind me of when I was at my most fit about 5-6 years ago and that alone encourages me to keep going and to keep working hard.

Any suggestions on what I may need to know about wordpress would be welcomed!

I will admit that I have been struggling with motivation this week. I have been more tired then usual. I have been questioning if I am doing enough, if I am going to see results, if I am eating right and if I am making good choices. When I start this thinking I usually talk myself out of continuing with going to the gym and start questioning what I am doing. I am going to beat these thoughts and feelings! I am going to keep going. One day this will get easier if I just keep going.

I really like working out with Samantha. She doesn’t let up no matter how much I complain or how many times I roll my eyes! It hurts, she pushes me to keep going and it hurts. She knows it hurts but she makes me keep going. Today I felt stronger then I did when I was with her last week. Don’t get me wrong I am still a weakling and far from where I want to be but I wasn’t quite as dizzy or winded as I felt last week.

I am not going to put pictures from the past few days. I was able to get this blogger thing to working right but I am going to take it as lesson learned and I will be back on track with pics tomorrow.

Yesterday was a whirl wind of a day. I was so busy at work and unable to eat as planned much less take pictures. Sometimes in my job I am stuck with out being able to get to my food that is packed and in the fridge. You might think I should put it in a cooler and carry it with me but that is not an option. Even if I had it with me I would not be able to eat it.

I am coming to realize that I am not going to be able to blog everyday. This is very time consuming and the reality of it is that I am very busy and I have a lot going on in life. Not saying that I am not going to blog but I think I started this thinking I would be able to do it in the evening everyday. Sorry to disappoint folks.

I got pics of my food today but like I said I can’t show them to you for some reason. I am going to work on this and see what I can figure out. If any one has any suggestions I would love to hear them.

Yesterday I was suppose to go to Fitness Together but I had to reschedule due to work running later then expected. I went tonight and did a good lower body work out with Andrea. She loves that Bosu ball, me not so much, but I understand why she likes it. It really does make you work harder and use more muscles then you would with out it. It really challenges your balance which it seems I need a bit more help in that department then I thought I did. Today was lots of lunges, some squats, and lots of core work. Another great thing about a trainer is that you don’t have to focus on counting your sets and when you are tired you still have to keep going.

Anyway, I know this is not very exciting. I will try to get things together with blogspot and get back to you. If this doesn’t work I may just have to switch over to wordpress. I will keep you posted.

(Blogger will not let me post pictures. I will add them later)

They were actually pretty tasty. Here is my plate.
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All thought they tasted good they were anything but what I wanted. I chugged some water and sucked it up knowing that I was not hungry at all. I went to bed and did not have anything else.

Saturday morning I had a chocolate, banana, and almond milk protein shake and off to the gym I went where I had a really great workout on the tready. 45 minutes total on the incline treadmill. The time counted backwards which for some odd reason I hate that.

45-25 I walked at 3.8-4.1 and changed the incline from 3% to 6% to 9% every minute.
25-20 I walked at 4.1 at 3%
20-10 I jogged at 4.5-5.0 at 1%, my goal was to get a mile in which I did.
10-5 I walked at 4.0 1%
5-0 I walked at 3.8-2.0 to cool down.

I stretched and did some abs.

When I got home I tried to make my normal 1 whole egg, 3 egg white, spinach and tomato omelet like I always do, but I ended up with this.

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I had to scramble the eggs which ended up being a disaster while I tried to stuff it in my mouth. I ended up having to get a fork to eat it. Taste the same but a huge mess.

Then we cleaned. Later I had some Greek yogurt and fiber O’s to hold me over to dinner because it was getting late.

That’s when it went down hill and pictures of my food didn’t happen. We went to dinner with my parents. Red Robin was the choice. I convinced myself that if I got the California chicken burger with no bacon that I was doing good. That would have probably been fine however I also ate the fries. I guess it could have been worse but I know I should have had a salad or done with out the fries.

Sunday
Today I finished up the TJ’s Greek yogurt with some more O’s. We went to drop some things off at the good will and then to Costco to restock. I had ½ of a pot sticker that they were passing out. We got what we needed and got out. It was a mad house.

I didn’t eat again until we went to Jorge’s parents for his grandmothers 82nd birthday. I made guacamole to take and wanted to have protein oats before I left the house so that it would be easier for me to resist all of the food there but I ran out of time.

I chugged water on the way there to fill my tummy a little. I had a few chips with guacamole before dinner. Jorge was great and asked his Aunt not to put the salad dressing on the salad and instead let people put their own on. Nothing like taking a healthy salad and drenching it with dressing making one of the most unhealthy things on the table.

When dinner time came around I had a little bit of rice w/ lintels, 1 SMALL white potato, a plate full of salad with a little bit of pot roast on top. I also used a little bit of balsamic dressing. Again I guess it could have been worse but still not exactly as good as I would have liked it to be.

Cake time came and I was glad that they had a carrot cake…it is easy to resist the cake when you don’t like the flavor of the cake being served.

Over all I guess my weekend meals were not too horrible but I need to do better!

Tomorrow is another day and I am back at Fitness Together to work off those fries!

There was no time to post my meals yesterday, I had to study. I finally got to take the ”real” national real estate test today so last night was cram central. I would like to report that I passed the test!  I pass one (the national section) of the two tests that I had to take. I am so pissed at myself because I was so close to passing the state section but missed it by one stinkin question. WTF!!! So I have to go back next week and take the state part again. I mean the good thing is you can take it until you pass it, the bad thing is you have to pay everytime. Damn it! O’well I will get it on the next go around.

So lets get down to business. Yesterday’s grub!

Breakfast- Trader Joe’s Vanilla Greek Yogurt and Fiber O’s. I am having a hard time with TJ’s Greek yogurt. It is tasty but the issue is that it is SUPER THICK! Now don’t get me wrong I love thick greek yogurt but man this stuff is like cement. Tasty Cement!

yay mid morning snack! 1 out of 5 days isn’t bad I need to work on that!

 

I was with Matt again today and now I can talk about how this whole post started. I have the drive to do this I have the motivation to change but man my body did not want to move my a$$ today. Sorry Matt, but thanks for working with me and getting me through. I have not been sleeping well, we have talked about that before, and it continues. This is the first “real” week of working out hard 6 out of 7 so that could be the reason. I feel like a bottomless pit today and can’t seem to get enough to eat. I am having cravings for fatty food that I am doing my best to resist. oh steak and cheese you are doing pretty dances in my head!

LET THE STRUGGLES BEGIN!

Ok so this is a super long post but that’s what happens when you miss a day! Dinner will not be a fatty food. Oh how I would love to order pizza and drink a beer but instead we are trying something new but I will save that for tomorrow. Stay tuned to read all about it.

How do you resist the cravings for fatty food?